Filtering by Tag: Music
My Dad came to visit me last weekend. He bought me a new Yo Yo Ma CD, because cello music does such great things for my soul. On the CD, Yo Yo Ma plays a duet from the movie, "The Mission." I heard the oboe solo and I thought "That's Leo." The purity of Leo's life, the shortness and the sweetness, is expressed in this song.
This chorus--"I know, I know you're going to be okay anyway" was perfect for sing inside my head during the long two wait for my miscarriage to happen.
I love to pray along with the radio. I'm in love with this song this weekend. It sort of reminds me of an updated take on St. Francis of Assisi's "Make me an instrument of your peace." I like singing this one to my Jesus. "Make me a Stereo of Your Heart." I was an 80's girl who was so excited to buy her first "ghetto blaster" with her own babysitting money. It just makes me laugh and smile to think about becoming a better boom box for Jesus.
So I'm driving down the snowy roads with my kids today. Then I hear this song on the radio for the first time (yeah, I'm a little sheltered)--and I'm just stunned. This is the perfect insight to a Borderline Personality Disorder. "You're my perfect little punching bag." "How did I become this obnoxious? What is it about you that makes me act like this?" "But baby I don't mean it, I promise."
I told my kids, this is not how love acts and you should never date this, let alone marry this!
When you're raised by someone with problems you get this thing called "fleas." They are these little mental health ticks that aren't you--but are bits of learned behavior that can come out in stressful situations. I've got Borderline Fleas and Narcissism ticks. It sucks. Cleaning up ticks and fleas off yourself is unpleasant work.
I've got to say, I'm 100% grateful for the Eucharist. The wisdom from the Holy Font is true. There is no way I would have ever figured out that respect for my husband is paramount--especially whenever I'm feeling unloved, unappreciated, or abandoned. My new mantra is "I can get angry without getting mean."
That's what respect is to me. I'm trying so hard not to be mean. Not to take the cheap shot. No nitpicking, or sighing loudly in another room or rolling my eyes. If there's a problem in my marriage, I need courage to talk about it openly and honestly.
Surprise. When I try my marriage God's way, my husband and I can talk about really deep problems together We can actually come up with solutions--from more romance to getting cheaper heating bills. When I pray to be more respectful--I'm less obnoxious--and more things start changing for the better.
Oh Pink. I love you, woman! I'm praying you into the Catholic Church along with Taylor Swift and few dozen other song writers I'd love to sit in the pew with during Daily Mass.
A rough week for me. But I thought this song is inspiring and pretty reflective of where I am in my spiritual journey right now.
Because my Jon is exactly like the lyrics in this song!
And he bowed his head to Jesus
And he stood for Uncle Sam
And he only loved one woman
He was always proud of what he had
He said his greatest contribution
Is the ones you leave behind
Raised on the ways and gentle kindness
Of a small town Southern man
For everyone out there who is struggling to stay "open to life."
a failed adoption...
or a scary, bone-rattling ride with an older child through Children's National Hospital,
my strong Carmelite prayer for each one of you is:
"if you get the chance, to sit it out or dance...
I hope you dance!"
Because babies are worth the risk!
Great song about cheerfully making "little sacrifices" for Christ. The song lyrics say "might not be what I choose, but this is the stuff you use!"
This song always makes me happy. We have "dance party" at my house with my 3 girls whenever this song appears on the radio. I think it's perfect for you!